Community In the Wave of Hard Things

Hard things seem to come in waves. And in the middle of those seasons, emotions go up and down too. Lately I’ve had days where I feel more messy and confused. I’m looking for that clarity I mentioned yesterday, but it just doesn’t come…at least not in ways I expect.

Multiple times I’ve said these words, “I don’t know what to do.”

And what usually follows is, “I’m not sure that’s the right answer.”

Being hesitant isn’t always a bad thing. There could be good reasons to not take one path and even better reasons to wait a little longer. Maybe God is growing that level of trust in my heart again. Maybe I need to sit with Him longer to strengthen my connection to the kind of courage that lasts beyond the current storm.

My heart is in a different place this time. These messy moments are pushing me out of isolation, out of getting stuck in my own thoughts. I can’t stay in the world of overthinking and mentally circling through the scenarios.

I have to be open and honest and say, “I don’t know what to do.” Deep down I probably know what to do next. Or I can see a possibility because God keeps bringing it to mind. He won’t let me forget something until I take that next step.

Part of what I’m learning is I can be brave enough. I can admit this is hard and find freedom in the honesty. And that vulnerability is also leading me to community.