The Storm Inside

“What’s the word for the day?”

“Storm,” I told my mom earlier at lunch time. “And I need to figure out when to write my post before small group tonight.”

She offered, “My Life is a Storm.”

“Yep, it feels that way right now.”

Storms come in different forms and I’ve known that inner rumble for a while. I had a phone call before lunch and it stirred me up on the inside. I’m unsettled and I realize this is one area I struggle to trust.

The questions are still too new for me to have peace.

There are really good things in this season, but they are thrown against this sense that things are changing. I’m stuck in-between with not enough vision to know how to move forward. Maybe I’m waiting for a larger line of clarity when I need to be acting with the courage God does offer in the current moment.

I’ve mentioned to one friend lately that these big decisions we have to make in life aren’t always permanent. Jobs can change. Friendships can change. People can change. And we can change as we face hard moments, take action in some way, and let God grow us and stretch us in new ways.

I can’t explain everything about my current storm yet, except the path is unclear in one area. And I’m going to need a bigger dose of peace and strength.

I also came across this verse in Isaiah twice today. It popped out as I read my devotions a couple of weeks ago and it’s a new favorite. I’m holding on to this promise and making my way back to trust and faith.

“You keep him in perfect peace

    whose mind is stayed on you,

    because he trusts in you.”

God can calm any storm. He has the power and the love to carry us through.

I listened to a song before I wrote this post — My Lighthouse by Rend Collective. We sang it with the kids yesterday and I love it every time. The words leave my heart encouraged…

“You will lead us through the storms…You are the peace in my troubled sea.”